This is the first time that I've actually had some rest. I woke up
beyond 7am and that feels good. I did things at my own pace and even
wondered what to do to kill time. At one point, I stopped and felt
something different. What was it? I thought I could smell Christmas
vacay!!! Christmas in the air... Add to that a vacay vacay vacay
vacation... I'll make sure to make the most out of it. My predicament is still there... but I promise not to sulk.
My pampering has just begun. I have freshly painted nails and it makes me feel very very light.
I'm currently addicted to Grey's anatomy. I'm not even halfway through the second season and I can't wait to finish it, but at the same time I don't want to. I'm not a very patient person and once I'm done watching the rest of it, it would be torture not being able to watch the third season and having to wait. Maybe the reason why I like it so much is because I probably feel better knowing that other people get hurt too. It's not that I find fun in seeing other people get hurt, I just realize that whenever I get hurt I'm not alone after all. And that makes me feel better.
I've heard a lot of people say that if a person doesn't know your worth, you should let go and leave it in the past. Besides, there's really no point in sulking over something in the past, something waaay overdue. Me and my attachment issues. dammit.
I occasionally have these talks with some of my friends about bitterness and loneliness. Don't you think it's kind of weird that I find other people experiencing "loneliness attacks" as well? A person does not need to have boy problems or heartaches to get these attacks. It just happens to some people, I guess. I think it happens to people who think too much. Sometimes I think that it's all in our minds, really. We force ourselves to see something that isn't really there. Are we masochists? And if we are, is that bad? Can hurting be really addicting?
It comes to a point when a person results to pathetic resolutions. One of which is begging. Begging will not take you anywhere. Trust me. As embarrassing as it sounds, I've been there and it wasn't good.
Begging or not, I still think this clip from Grey's anatomy is sweet. ....And very sad at the same time.
from mic.. :)
smoked a cigar
madeout with a member of the same sex
crashed a friend's car
stolen a car
been in love
been dumped
shoplifted
been fired
been in a fist fight
snuck out of my parent's house
had feelings for someone who didnt have them back
been arrested
made out with a stranger
gone on a blind date
lied to a friend
had a crush on a teacher
been to Europe
skipped school
slept with a co-worker
seen someone die
had a crush on one of your LJ friends
been to Canada
been to Mexico
been on a plane
thrown up in a bar
purposely set a part of myself on fire
eaten Sushi
been snowboarding
met someone in person from LJ
been moshing at a concert
been in an abusive relationship
taken painkillers
love someone or miss someone right now
laid on your back and watched cloud shapes go by
made a snow angel
had a tea party
flown a kite
built a sand castle
gone puddle jumping
played dress up
jumped into a pile of leaves
gone sledding
cheated while playing a game
been lonely
fallen asleep at work/school
used a fake id
watched the sunset
felt an earthquake
touched a snake
slept beneath the stars
been tickled
been robbed
been misunderstood
petted a reindeer/goat
won a contest
run a red light
been suspended from school
been in a car accident
had braces
felt like an outcast
eaten a whole pint of ice cream in one night
had deja vu
danced in the moonlight
hated the way you look
witnessed a crime
pole danced
questioned your heart
been obsessed with post-it notes
squished barefoot through the mud
been lost
been to the opposite side of the country
swam in the ocean
felt like dying
cried yourself to sleep
played cops and robbers
recently colored with crayons/colored pencils/markers
sung karaoke
paid for a meal with only coins
done something you told yourself you wouldn't
made prank phone calls
laughed until some kind of beverage came out of your nose
caught a snowflake on your tongue
danced in the rain
written a letter to Santa Claus
been kissed under a mistletoe
watched the sun rise with someone you care about
blown bubbles
made a bonfire on the beach
crashed a party
gone rollerskating
had a wish come true
humped a monkey
worn pearls
jumped off a bridge
screamed penis in class
ate dog/cat food
told a complete stranger you loved them
kissed a mirror
sang in the shower
have a little black dress
had a dream that you married someone
glued your hand to something
got your tongue stuck to a flag pole
kissed a fish
worn the opposite sexes clothes
been a cheerleader
sat on a roof top
screamed at the top of your lungs
done a one-handed cartwheel
talked on the phone for more than 6 hours
stayed up all night
didn’t take a shower for a week
pick and ate an apple right off the tree
climbed a tree
had a tree house
are scared to watch scary movies
believe in ghosts
have more then 30 pairs of shoes
worn a really ugly outfit to school just to see what others say
gone streaking
played ding-dong-ditch
played chicken
been pushed into a pool with all your clothes on
been told you're hot by a complete stranger
broken a bone
been easily amused
caught a fish then ate it
made porn
caught a butterfly
laughed so hard you cried
cried so hard you laughed
mooned/flashed someone
had someone moon/flash you
cheated on a test
have a Britney Spears CD
forgotten someone's name
slept naked
French braided someone's hair
gone skinny dippin in a pool
been threatened to be kicked out of your house
been kicked out your house
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With hope,
Audrey
